Honestly I Should Have Lied

Honesty!?

Honestly,

I really don't think I should've been honest, see

I believe the idea of it would have been nice, yes indeed,

But when I told you the truth you vanished and now your distantly

Probably

Thinking “what the fuck did he do... why now... no please...”

Seriously

I think the thought was nice and to me

It was the right thing because it should have brought us closer promptly

And our friendship should have grown, but we

Now have nowhere to go and to thee

I want to let know that me

Myself and I will be

Always friendly and show respect to you because we

Really do need

Each other now so please,

Oh please, do let us be friends forever, yes do let our friendship grow eternally,

Don't leave.

After You Are Seen, I Am Heard.

Smile for me once more, my lightning, and ignore all that is pain.

For on a sunny day, my dear, I'll wish for it to rain.

Then as your thunder, bright one, when you strike, you'll hear my roar.

I'll come after thee to say, that we'll be friends forevermore.

Black Rose

I'm the black rose,

Full of thorns.

If I tell you where I'm from

Then you'll wish I wasn't born.

If you see me you'll run

And never come back

Because I'm the black rose

And I don't exist in this land.

A Little Late, But Just In Time

At the moment we find ourselves pretty pre-occupied

With the fact that

We are just a little too late to say I'm sorry,

But we are just in time to say goodbye.

We let the seconds fly

And didn't care about the minutes.

We let them turn into hours, days, months

And then seasons until tonight.

Tonight we will not reason.

We will not hear each other out.

We will just stare and wonder, why?

Why did we leave the other alone in mid-cold season?

Agree to Disagree

Can't say that I want to stay

No it's not that I want to walk away

It's just that you screaming at me got me dizzy

Why can't you just speak easy

Please baby girl take it slow

Sip it like wine not Patron

Can't you see you got me gone

Dazed and ablaze because my ears are red and hot

And it's simply because you wont stop

The yelling and the swearing no I can not

Take this shit, yes I'm running out now

Baby lower your tone, please not so loud.

Lets lower our voices, lets be civilized,

Believe it or not I want to be with you every day and night.

It's just that you're making it hard for me

Making it hard to breath

Baby please just let it go

I promise it won't happen any more.

I understand, yes you're right.

I was wrong, I'll sleep on the couch tonight.

I'll think of my mistake and what I've done.

Okay baby, next time I won't be so blunt.

I'll be more sensitive and respect your feelings

I'll do anything so that you won't leave me.

Even agree to disagree with you,

Within myself, quietly so that we won't argue.

Casanova

Sweet, pretty, little thing

Yes I know you rock that diamond ring

'Cause its inevitable to over see its shine

But still, I would love to have you as my top gun, my dear dime.

Let's converse a bit

And as I digress do sit

By my side, not as a slide,

But as my map through love and through life my guide.

Bring it home, let's make it clear,

One thing to know is that, although dear,

Our love can not be much

More than just a touch.

Here and there, anywhere,

Do continue with your seduction as I stare

Into your eyes my beautiful light,

Blinding as our lust takes flight

Heed my warning, oh my melody,

Do not fall in love with me,

For this man you see, of you, in front

Can never truly be in love with one.

A Beautiful Young Girl

A Beautiful Young Girl

A collaboration between Edwin Calvo and Vincent Santos Jr.

She walks by, she is blind existence and purposeful

With German blue eyes and Russian red skin, 

She is resiliently taking in all I dish out

And responding in contrast.

She Challenges my intellect, without a doubt,

She makes me seem a jack ass.

She humbles me, what I threw out

Now seems idiotic making me feel like brass

about the love that through out

our lives felt so godsend like mass

I take my time to think

How I may sweep her off of her feet

and hopefully my Yin

might take to her Yang

and in hope trust she meets

the love she ought to find in me

because life exists

and not all existence exists in me.

By:   Edwin Calvo and Vincent Santos

Regrets

I regret falling off the map

When you needed that

Friend.

I hope that you can understand

That, although

I am distant at times, I miss you and I need you close.

I know that I don't deserve you

But now I irk for you

And now I know

That karma is a bitch because I need your glow.

That beautiful shine

That made me feel happy 'til the end of time.

So now I close

My eyes as I doze

Off into the night

As the hopes of having you take flight

And your presence dissipates

Depriving me of your warmth, as my life this solitude degrades.

Meant To Be

Dedication made to Mariela Ramos from Jorge Rojas

I spoke to God and I

Asked Him where true beauty lies.

He showed me an image of you

And said, "indeed she is beauty and truth."

And I understood,

I understood that we were meant to be,

You were made for me,

I was made for you,

We were meant to see

Each of us grow old.

We were meant to form a home

And from there move on

To a new life,

As husband and wife,

I as yours, you as mine.

Our eternal love, oh so divine.

Suicidal

I write to you my dear

Out of fear

Because to me it is clear

That you, indeed, I do repel.

I can not tell

If I, who dwells

In chants and spells,

Can love.

My dove,

Oh, dear beloved

Muse of amusements and all that is above

Great, do demystify my confusion.

Tell me if I

Should stop the games and try

To not try but instead do

What must be done to learn to love.

About Me

About me you ask and about me I say that about me I would not like to know because about me... About me, about my face, behind the skull, inside the brain many images do form the kind of things you should ignore, but since it is me ignorance is subdued and everything is thought of from night's black to day's blue. A philosopher, a poet, a thinker, a current drifter that lets himself be dragged down a waterfall into deep bliss with a kiss given not by an angel but by a demonic dream... Now which of these is me I ask and you may say that out of these I'm none for I'm a slave. A slave of dreams and fantastic thoughts, a slave of idling naughts living in a never ending match of daughts. Moving from here to there without a purpose found trying to see the universe but finding out that I am earth bound. From birth 'till death I am earth's creature the spectator watching from the bleachers how humans research the smallest and most gigantic of anythings, digging, destroying grounds InSearchOf diamond rings. Killing each other, killing the innocent, killing everything even the ignorants, killing the retards**I'm sorry that slipped, I meant to say mentally challenged, the challenged in anyway, but that doesn't matter does it to you it's the same. 


--To Be Continued...?

Honey

Honey covered sweet little treat
You give me such a sugar high it's hard for me to keep
My composure as you sleep
On my lap like a kitty cat
I love to watch you take your nap
When I'm done massaging your back
My little harmony
So soft and petite
Like a flower, you're unique
Uniquely loving and loved
A gift from above
If I touch you I wear white gloves
To prevent my self from damaging your frame
This is true love not a lust filled game
The fire in my heart burns furiously driving me insane
For I am insanely infatuated with your self
No amount of money or wealth
Could persuade me to leave you, for my heart would melt

To Mermyth

Oh! Mermyth,

why, why abandon me... why do you, whom I've thought divine, do so coldly turn away and neglect your duties as my muse. Without you I can not think properly and thoughts of greatness, oh great thoughts, do cease to consume my imagination. Thoughts which show truth and in which truth does choose to show its value. Oh! Mermyth, my dear Mermyth. Tell me, why must I suffer in this way when you yourself have brought so many, oh so many, beautiful feelings of fulfilment. You whom exists purely for my salvation. You whom I do love so dearly because of the simple fact that you make me happy. Although your existence lays but within my mind I have chosen to give you life and think you real. A real representation of my purest inspirations and that is why I miss you so. Please do quicken your return and hastily do hurry to me for without proper thought my cloudy mind may end me.

Truly missing you,

Edwin Calvo

March 18th, 2009